Sun, April 9, 2023
Despite following my IVF doctor’s recommendations to take various supplements and eat antioxidant-rich foods, I still feel disappointed with how I look. When I look in the mirror, my skin looks dehydrated, my face and neck are covered in pimples, and my hair is dry and frizzy. The worst thing is that my periods have become shorter and less frequent since my second round of IVF a few months ago.
I have an upcoming appointment for an overall reproductive ultrasound and blood tests in a few weeks. I had those done a year ago and after a year, I need to repeat them. This makes me feel nervous and scared as I’m not sure how my markers will be. Women from 38-40 experience drastic changes in their reproductive systems and hormones, which make it more difficult for them to have a baby. I don’t have much hope for the IVF success this time around, and the thought of traveling to Vietnam for the treatment is both thrilling and overwhelming at the same time.
I know I shouldn’t worry so much, but it’s hard not to. I need to remind myself that nothing is more important than my IVF treatment right now and that any worries or anxieties I have aren’t worth dwelling on. It’s important to affirm this thought whenever those negative thoughts arise.
I’ve been taking allergy pills for almost a week now, and this is already the fourth time I’ve been hit with allergies since the end of February. It all started when the winter started to fade away and the spring season was arriving. There was more rain, soil was moist and sometimes wet, covered by layers of old leaves. Trees, plants, flowers were coming back to life, with more buds popping and flowers blooming. The wind started to pick up, stirring up small particles and leaves, filling the air with pollen and allergens. That was the perfect time for allergies to hit people like me who are super sensitive to them.
Begin life at forty 