To do:
– Make a grocery list and go shopping
– Cook beef
– Clean S’s office and the foyer
– Declutter boxes, clothes, and empty bottles
– Reply the nurse’s email (tomorrow)
– Call the hospital and the insurance provider (tomorrow)
– Do the laundry and fold clothes
– Clean Sam’s litter box
– Sew curtains
To do:
– Draft a letter
– Change the bed sheets
– Tidy up the living room
– Clean the kitchen
– Put outlet cover plates back on the wall
– Store cooked rice in containers
– Clean the front porch
– Go to Walmart (maybe)
Wed, November 16, 2022
To do:
– Make 2 pots of black tea
– Look for a painting for S’s office
– Stew beef
– Fill out the application
– Call the insurance provider
– Do the laundry, run the dryer and fold clothes
Tue, November 15, 2022
AM:
7:50: Unloaded the dishwasher
9:04: Vacuumed the upstairs, cleaned the carpet, and change Dozer’s bed sheets
Mon, November 14, 2022
PM
– Cleaned the 1/2 bathroom
– Folded clothes
– Tidied up the downstairs
– Unloaded the dishwasher, cleaned the kitchen
– Vacuumed the downstairs
– Replaced a home air filter
Sun, November 13, 2022
AM:
– Cooked pork belly in coconut water
– Made 2 pots of black tea
– Did laundries and folded clothes
Sat, November 12, 2022
12:38: Made a dog boarding reservation, checked and signed documents
2:07: Prepped food, unloaded and ran the dishwasher
4:18: Tidied up the multi-functional room
5:20: Cleaned Sam’s litter box
5:34: Cooked dinner, did the laundry/folded clothes
AM:
8:40: Ran the dishwasher
8:50: Did the laundry/Ran the dryer
9:00: Sewed curtains
PM:
1:42: Made 2 pots of black tea
8:30: Cleaned the kitchen
Today I ate:
– Breakfast: pork congee, cup of coffee milk
– Lunch: blue berries, one apple, and leftover dinner
– Dinner: pork, rice, broccoli salad and steamed shrimp
– Snacks: 5 candies
PM:
3:13: Made a pot of black tea
3:23: Unloaded the dishwasher
3:45: Vacuumed the first floor
5:37: Cleaned Sam’s litter box
5:53: Cooked dinner
7:38: Cleaned the kitchen
She doesn’t feel care or attention from him.
She feels like she’s not his motivation anymore, but a sack of burden, an irritating eyesore and the cause of all of his discomfort instead.
They are living in two different worlds where his or her concerns aren’t their concerns. She has been in pain emotionally and physically but she doesn’t think he is sensible to what she’s been going through. He’s busy all the time; she looks healthy and her inside injury is unseen.
They should be open to each other about their thoughts, she knows that but this is not the time. There are moments when, whatever she does, it always fails though it comes with a good intention. There are moments when silence is better than words, when doing nothing means doing something. When there are moments like this, coming back to her inner-self is all she longs for.
Silence is not victim playing. She is a victim of her self loathing because she lets the feelings of disappointment, frustration, misery and pessimism take control of her, eating her from inside. She has been taught not to react to an attack with an attack back but she’s still struggling to not react to her own inner negative emotions induced by the occurrence. She is silent because she’s suffering and needs time to heal.
Silence is not avoidance. She doesn’t mind a face-to-face conversation but after enough talks she understands that the difference in some of their thoughts and perceptions is unchangeable. Her silence means acceptance which is the best she can do for herself and their relationship right now.
Silence is not a punishment but a defense mechanism instead. She doesn’t allow herself to hurt anyone in any form, especially slinging mean words because she deeply understands they have the power to shatter a person’s soul. She will choose silence to create her boundary when dealing with someone’s disrespect rather than throwing it back at them. In that boundary, she feels safe and grounded. A few times, she yelled at him when she was triggered or had bad anxiety; she felt so bad about herself after that. She didn’t feel wrong but she hated herself when losing self-control.
Source: Ageless Wisdom by J.S. Felts, and the Internet, especially Reddit. Great thanks to the authors and all those who have generously shared these wonderful quotes.
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68. Never put off tomorrow what you can do today.
– Thomas Jefferson, letter to Thomas Jefferson Smith, 21 Feb 1825
69. When angry, count ten, before you speak; if very angry, a hundred.
– Thomas Jefferson, letter to Thomas Jefferson Smith, 21 Feb 1825
70. It is easy to fly into a passion – anybody can do that – but to be angry with the right person and to the right extent and at the right time and with the right object and in in the right way – that is not easy, and it is not everyone who can do it.
– Aristotle, Nicomachean Ethics
71. Do not teach your children never to be angry; teach them how to be angry.
– Lyman Abbott, The Christian Union, 11 Sept 188
72. Emotions, without knowledge, is dangerous
– J.S.Felts
73. A good scare is worth more to a man than good advice
– Edgar Watson Howe, Plain People
74. Knowledge is the antidote to fear
– Ralph Waido Emerson, “Society”, Society and Solitude
75. Those who fear nothing, love nothing.
– Saying
76. Courage is resistance to fear, mastery of fear – not absence of fear
– Mark Twain, Pudd’nhead Wilson
77. The less you respond to negativity, the more peaceful your life becomes.
78. Grief is itself a medicine.
– William Cowper, “Charity”, Poems
79. He that lacks time to mourn lacks time to mend.
– Henry Taylor, Philip Van Artevelde
80. I look at what I have not and think myself unhappy; others look at what I have and think me happy.
– Joseph Roux, Meditations of a Parish Priest
81. If people only wanted to be happy it would be very easy; but they want to be happier than other people, and this is almost always difficult, because we imagine other people happier than they really are.
– Charles de Montesquieu, quoted in Montesquieu (1888) by Albert Sorel
82. Learn to trust the journey, even when you do not understand it. Sometimes what you never wanted or expected turns out to be what you need.
83. Who does not thank for little will not thank for much
– Estonian Proverb
84. It takes less time to do a thing right, than to explain why you did it wrong.
– Saying
85. Never be so brief as to become obscure.
– Tryon Edwards, A Dictionary of Thoughts
86. They may forget what you said and they may even forget what you did, but they will never forget how you made them feel.
– Saying
87. Never tell people how to do things. Tell them what to do and they will surprise you with their ingenuity.
– George S. Patton, War As I Knew it
88. If you command wisely, you’ll be obeyed cheerfully.
– Thomas Fuller, Gnomologia
89. A leader is always learning. He understands everyone has something to teach him.
– J.S. Felts
90. A leader is not ruled by his emotions, yet he is not without passion.
– J.S. Felts
91. Leadership is based on inspiration, not domination; on cooperation, not intimidation.
– William Arthur Ward
92. There is a great man who makes every man feel small. But the real great man is the man who makes every man feel great.
– G.K. Chesterton, Charles Dickens
93. Better to measure ten times and cut once, than measure once and cut ten times.
– Saying
94. In everything you do, consider the end.
– Saying
95. Some people will never learn anything, for this reason, that they understand everything too soon.
– Alexander Pope, Thoughts on Various Subjects
96. The way to develop self-confidence is to do the thing you fear to do, and get a record of successful experiences behind you.
– William Jennings Bryan
97. Until you learn to control your emotions, you will never control your life.
– J.S. Felts
98. He is happy, whose circumstances suit his temper; but he is more excellent, who can suit his temper to any circumstances.
– David Hume, Moral Philosophy
99. He who requires much from himself and little from others, will keep himself from being the object of resentment.
– Confucius, Analects
100. Where it is in our power to do a thing, it is equally in our power to abstain from doing it.
– Robert Browning, “Bishop Blougram’s Apology”, Men and Women
101. Change is not made without inconvenience, even from worse to better.
– Richard Hooker, quoted in A Dictionary of the English Language (1755)
102. To do two things at once is to do neither.
– Publilius Syrus, Sententiae
103. The point of an argument isn’t to find a winner, it is to find the truth. (Me: It is to understand each other and each other’s thoughts on the matter.)
104. Even in the chaos of everyday life, moments of gratitude remind us to hold on to the good things.
105. Remember that what you now have once among the things you only hoped for.
106. Happiness is not having what you want. It is appreciative what you have.
107. Be a kind person. Yes, even to jerks. Let them be a jerk. You be a kind person.
108. Respect people’s feelings. Even if it doesn’t mean anything to you, it could mean everything to them.
109. The art of knowing is knowing what to ignore.
110. Maturity begins when you can be right without having to prove the other person wrong.
PM:
1:09: Emailed the nurse
1:26: Mailed a letter
2:11: Cleaned S’s office for painting (dusted the wall and wiped the baseboards)
2:45: Ordered meds
3:00: Pre-ordered groceries online
4:49: Cooked dinner & cleaned the kitchen
PM:
2:53: Unloaded the dishwasher
3:20: Tidied up the living/dining area, paid a bill
4:06: Did the laundry & ran the dryer
4:28: Vacuumed and mopped the multi-purpose room floor
7:08: Prepped shrimp
PM:
2:29: Ran the dishwasher
2:41: Tidied up the living/dining area and vacuumed
4:18: Cut pineapples and boiled chicken
4:54: Did the laundry
7:10: Cleaned Sam’s litter box
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